Heartbeat in My Head

Sometimes I can hear my heart

beating inside my head

And that’s the only sound I hear

It scared me before

But now it’s the only sound

that calms me down

Maybe because I once heard another one

Beating just as loudly

under my fingerprints

Who knows

It’s a sign that I’m alive

Breathing and healthy

How many people can say the same

And how unfair it is

Who knows

It made me sad

and hurt

and happy

I’m too sensitive for this

The sound that calmed me down once

Became a collision of couple

And that rhythm may not have been in sync

Yet it was the only thing I loved

Once

One day I won’t

I said

Yet it became my fear

to hear it again

Because then it was

my only heart beating

But now I’m okay

Just as I said

One day I won’t imagine things

that won’t happen anyway

My heart keeps beating

And I don’t yearn for the collision anymore

But who knows

Maybe I’m just a sensitive liar

Or a good storyteller to myself

That I actually believe in my story

Maybe that’s the day